Table For One

I'm officially out of the dating game.

There, I said it.

Only, I've not agreed to be any man's girlfriend.  See, I'm out of the game because I haven't been out on a date in...well, a long time.  It is painstakingly embarrassing to admit that but it is certainly true.  For the life of me, I can't really figure out why I haven't been dating. I can only think of one reason: I don't go out that much.

But women always talk about meeting men on the train, in grocery stores or just walking down the block. To that I ask: what train, what stores and what blocks?  On my main trains, there are only women, children and mentally disturbed folks. No, that's not an exaggeration but really just the way it is. At the grocery store, there are only women and families. And walking down the block? Well, I do get a few shouts here and there from the homeboys who never have anywhere to go or anything to do with themselves.  But these women are talking about "quality" men, or what appear to be quality men upon first convo, and so no, I don't encounter those either.

There was a time  - long ago - when ya girl (that's me in case you're not up on 90s lingo) was always meeting men. Some good, some not so much. But the point is that I could meet a guy at least once a month even if no information was ultimately exchanged.  Ahh, the good ol' days.

Wondertwin (one of my closest friends) said she can't understand why I'm not dating all the time seeing as though I'm a decent looking woman with a great personality (you can call this a pat on the back if you'd like but I really do think I'm kind of dope, lol).  No, I'm not the frilly dress girly-girl (I rock jeans and sneakers) but I do alright for myself. The only reason I can come up with is that I don't go out as often as I used to.  I assume if I got back "out on the scene," there's a chance I'd meet more men.  You certainly can't meet anyone sitting in the house; if that were the case, I'd truly be "off the market" with a ring and everything!

I've got to start from scratch and get back out there. I've never been a good flirt with someone I might actually be interested in so maybe that's something I can add into the new routine I'm working up in my head.  Like, something has got to give because sometimes the silence can be so loud.

The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results and I really can't afford to go crazy!