Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Bad Habit

Before I formally met him, I saw him. Our initial contact was through a letter, then phone conversations, and then we finally met face to face (and when I saw him, I knew it was him before he even introduced himself). That was almost 11 years ago. Our friendship has gone up and down - a Great Adventure roller coaster of epic proportion. The details aren't even necessary at this point and we're on good terms right now. He was my bad habit for a very long time until I finally got over the hump, let the friendship go, give myself time to let it all go, and then come back to the middle again. Years ago, Far Rock (we've discussed him before) was my bad habit. I realized I wasn't his so I got over it.

We all kind of go through it. Maxwell's song (and PLEASE correct me if I'm wrong) sounds like he's talking about a current love...or lover. That woman is clearly taking him to another level when they hook up sexually b/c there's no one as bad as her. *wipes sweat from the brow* Anyway, you can read the lyrics for yourself and decipher what he's talking about. It seems to be somewhat of an obsession for him to connect with the woman and to even think about her scent, her hair, or just her body. It happens that way though, doesn't it? Sometimes it takes just that one person for you to be all messed up in the head. Whether it's something in the way they talk, the way they treat you, the sex...whatever. Maybe your habit was someone you're still with or someone you haven't seen in 10 years. Or was it something they did to you? Helped you do things different.

Who/What is/was your Bad Habit? Let's talk.

7 comments:

N.O. LADI said...

My bad habit was the boy next door. He was the drug that I craved. We were the best of friends who fell in love. Years of back and forth, up and down, and everything in between and I was still hooked. And when it was over, I literally had to go through rehab to get over him. I had to hit rock bottom before I got it. He was no bueno for me. I just wish I would've figured that out years ago. But, hindsight is 20/20, right?

Anonymous said...

My old bad habit was dead and buried for the past 16 years. Due to FB it has resurfaced...He was the love of my life..well I thought he was at the time. We dated for 2 years but broke up and were each other rebound ├×hings for years thereafter. In 1993 it was over and I recovered after rehab...
Now, I have been reintroduced to my old favorite drug...and boy oh boy and am I yearning for a walk, stroll or hit down memory lane.. Yeah, we have mates and yeah life is complicated now...BUT the thought of the high and good time is so tempting..I feel like Amy Winehouse now...LOL

Miss BB is... said...

@Anon 11:18 (as if there's another one, lol): That made me clutch my pearls!!

missbelle said...

Hey Miss BB!!! You know who my drug of choice was, can't really give him a nickname at this time.

Similar to anonymous, I was 7 years clean and boop, FB brought him back in to my stratesphere. Am taking it very slow and made it very clear where I'm at.....BUT, BUT, BUT, my head can't control the involuntary happennings between my thighs when I think of his touch, his sexiness, his energy. Dayum.......kinda like Jill Scott's song, 'Cross My Mind'.

LovinMe4Me said...

My bad habit, truthfully it was nothing bad about that habit.3 years with this habit was FANTASTIC!! Guru (tht's what I call him and yes for those reasons) wasn't trying to be anybody's man but he was feeling me and as fine and sexy this man was, hell yeah I was feeling him. I'll keep it PG (Miss BB if you want details, let me know)but truth be told it was all Rated R (and XXX at times) with him. I only told a couple of people (at the time) about him because I didn't want the "girl, you deserve better" or "you are selling yourself short" talks. I knew all that, but I didn't care because I was having a great time. But I will say Guru never made me feel like that other chick or a piece on the side, he was always respectful (btw, I knew he might have had others but I didn't care, I was always safe and I never asked). Both hands in the air and shouting "YES I WAS WIDE THE #@$% OPEN OFF OF GURU" and you know what, I didn't care. And I don't regret 1 damn thing.
But after 3 years and many many many many great times, I had to let Guru go because I was getting to that I wanted more stage and I knew he didn't. So I ended it, no convo, just bounced and stopped all forms of communcation. It took everything in me not to call him again.
If I run into Guru again, would I start that habit again....who knows.

XOXO (and smiling)

Miss BB is... said...

I feel like we all need to go out for drinks! I spoke to my friend (former bad habit) yesterday and it only takes seconds to go "there." OH MY!!

LovinMe4Me said...

Drinks are a must!!